betting the wrong share?

i hope i am not...



很累……就像一个人撑着
很烦……没了翅膀
很忧……没了方向
您以为我爬的快是易如反掌？
并不是如此简单
有不完的惆怅
只是我表现开朗
未来的路，还有很长
我是否有能力走完？

想哭……

来了KL最常做的事情，就是那十年都忘了怎么做的事……

这里……

唤醒了泪水；遗忘了坚强

唤醒了柔弱；遗忘了勇敢

唤醒了情感；遗忘了目标

我想……baby devil患上了忧郁症

常常多愁善感

反复无常

她自己就快认不出自己了

我还是喜欢

那个- 乐天，坚强，有目标又有点坏蛋的baby devil……

帮帮我，把她找回来，好吗？

too weak

弱……



太弱。。。





太弱了。。。。。。！！！




THIS IS NOT COMPETIBLE!!!!!



ARRRRGGGHHHHHHH~~~~~

Wrong Way

The misery grow deep
Life sucks when you don't want it to be
I'm tired of the mess
Just go-
I don't want to be like the rest
I don't want to be so nice
I just want to be cold
Saved from all emotion of all the stereotypical molds
Because loving has been fruitless
No coming out nor coming close
You one I thought I could trust
You one I thought You could understand
But now I sit in my room all alone
Dying within heart and mind
Does it make you happy to see me depressed?
Take your opinions
Shove them down your throat
Gag it... until you choke
Take your pride
Take your useless cares
Put it in a bottle and throw it to the skies
May be when it land down the sun will shine
I don't need a single tear
because I am chill

silent death

Can you stop bible?

Can you stop mumble?

Can you stop disturbing my peace?

Why can't i have a peaceful day?

Just one day also cannot?

Where are you when i need?

Where are you like you said you'll always be there?

How come we no longer talk like before?

How come I always feel I'm alone?

How come I always feel tired?

How come I feel cold?

How come it's so blue?

How come it's so grey?

Why is it so EMPTY...

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Don't cry in front of me for not my fault

Don't bible when you wanna take the responsibility



I AM HATRED FOR ALL THESE!

I Am... ...

MOODY





UNHAPPY





DOWN

I need... ...

to ease the mess

to ease the brain

to ease the emptiness

to ease the loneliness

to ease the miserable feelings

Live to Die Another Day

So long it's been since it begun
But now I fear I've passed the sun
But here i am, I am alive
though long ago the life had ceased
trapped here in tis lifeless place
truely dead and empty space
can't see the soul in an endless lough
the horror of tis place
where you fight so hard but you can't win
pray so hard for god to see my plight
and free my soul to gimme a flight
i can't see any light
where gimme the courage to stay alive
float away
live to die another day

i boh song....hmmphh!

why m i feeling so blue... i tot i can get over it.. i tot i m fine v it.. i tot i m ok but im not.. whats goin on v me... i knw wat i want... but thats too far to reach... too hurtful to get it... so i chose to leave it... so i hv to deal v it.. thn why m i stil feeling blue???? someday someone will grab & appreciate thn ter i'll send my blessing...

a little laughter after reading me being emo...
tis is the "biggest" cicak tail i ever seen... aiyerrrrrrrrrr.... so "wat tatt" yuckkkkssssssss ....eeeeiiiiiiiiii..... eeeeuuuuiiiiiiiiiiiiiii... wic make me scream like hell & thn my little "hubby" be the hero... =p


XO why u leaving me all alone OX

Greyish

I can feel the hatred
flow through my veins
I keep praying to god
i dont wanna go insane
hopefully i am strong
I hope i wont give in
im trying my hardest
to not give into sin
I Hate You I Hate You
I screamed
From the bottom of my heart im bleeding
For the tears filling my eyes, im crying
run and hide
each and everytime
nothing you could do but js disguise
I hate myself I want to bleed
looking at the sky longing to be freed
i think of death there’s so much pain
im losing myself im going insane
life seems pointless from where im at
im sick of living with all this crap
feel like im suffocating
stuck in a trap
a trap with nowhere but endless cave
cant see the rainbow only pain
no one hear my painful screams
they dont know about my horrible dreams
my mind is taunted i try not give in
but my heart burns with hate
may be it js too late
a little courage wasnt enough
as i'd lose my heart
i know i dont have much to give
but please... give me a reason to live

...

好累。。。




好累。。。。。。




真的好累。。。。。。。。。

You Not Here

当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边已是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你再转身
无数陌生人 正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分
不过渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯 黑暗将我并吞
你不在 当我最需要爱
你却不在 无尽等待向独白的难捱
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来 但你不在
时间再按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨
孤单一人分 你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真
你说得对 我不得不承认
那些摇摆 我都明白 都明白
但你不在 爱已不再 不在
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在
一个人分饰两角的恋爱
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在
像空气般不存在的存在
在没有痕迹的爱 你不在
当我需要你的爱 你不在

untitled

It rains, and the wind is never weary;

The vine still clings to the moldering wall,

But at every gust the dead leaves fall,

And the day is dark and dreary.






隐藏好悲伤和思绪，不想让你发现。。。

因为我想，



我会更坚强些。。。。。。

It's in the silences

the walls of my castle speak

they tell me that you're not here

the heart of my kingdom weeps

knowing you're nowhere near

the words you never say,

i see it in your eyes...

XO XO

这是第几次了。。。。。。

宇告诉过自己不能说。。。。。。。。


你是没听懂吗？



可是。。。。。。。












可是。。。。。。。。。。。





一天一天的过…………




你难道都没发现








我的异样？？？



我隐藏得那么好吗？？？？？

太棒了！！





原来我是









奥斯卡最佳女主角 >.<"

无题。。。

宇想走 这吵杂的路口
您的痛 宇没办法拼凑
对不起 宇没能力挽救
支离破碎的黑洞
想走 没有黎明的路口
风不停的颤抖
落叶悲伤的胸口
没有挽留 没有补救
讽刺得发抖。。。
你说 会给宇靠
可， 你有否想过或许你还做不到？
你要的 宇给不牢
百合在祷告
幸福要收好
宇 深陷黑洞
你能否慰抚宇心中的痛？
支撑的好累
希望此刻就被你包围
那温暖的背
卸下了所有疲惫
宇很努力的面对
等待 期盼
憔悴 也不惧畏
就算要好久好久以后
百合一样开的灿烂
迎接蒲公英的香

...

why do u drunk again?
why are u smoke again?
why are u crying?
it has been so long so long
u promise u'll nvr drunk again
it has been so long so long
u said u gonna give up the habit
wat u promise during the marriage?
wat u done after that?
tell me, tell me, tell me why
why do i hv to face that once a while?
cant u js let me be peaceful js a little?
is tat so nice to see im down?
u knw the situation
u knw the life creation
u knw we are fighting for so hard so hard
i knw i js need to be a little bit more strong
i knw i js need to be a little bit more tough
i knw i tried
and, i m tired hell out the days of the fakin faces
what can i do?
just tell me
what can i do......................

moodless....

ulcer is making me real sick these two days.. im so sick of it...can't eat, can't talk much (& u still makin me shout hell the way out of you!!!>.<"""), can't sleep well (great..im gonna bcome a real panda =s )..
on the 18th Feb im gonna get my results... horribles =.=" thn 21st im gonna pluck my wisdom tooth...>.<" so bad...
is that gonna hurt?? can anyone tel me? bcoz my dentist said i might need to operate to take it out... =s
i dont wanna operate cz its gonna hurt so badly.... i suppose... ><" if the 18th im good..i promise i'll be steady...so wish me luck...
but facts couldnt be change...but i've ready to receive any news.... =p {tryin to act steady...}
i started to dun knw wat m i talkin abt oredy.....haizzzzz....nutzzzzzzzzzz! i m nutzzzzzz head!! o.O

Stuffy...

I'm so sorry abt ya remedial... thgs couldnt change it better once a fact.
failure is once step ahead to the success...that is why all the great person in the world do fail before.
Don't be afraid, because u are not alone.

I'm here even i couldn't help up anything. I just want u to learn to face it toughly..
That is why human grow up for. To face all the difficulties and challenges..
I care, that is why no matter how's ya attitude are...
I'm still here. Even i might show some temper.
Opinion is merely i wana you to hav more options.
Opinion doesn't mean i'm not supporting.
Please... NEVER twist my conern to the bad side again

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Happy Birthday honey! may u enjoy ya big day with ya special one... i very good...dont wana be the spot light of you both! =p
but don't u both dare to forget about me... hehe! take care & all the best to u!