>.<"

刚从99MART买了盒鸡蛋……

好累，就笨手笨脚的；打破了一粒。

就这样，我的二十九毛五- - 掉进咸水海。。。=.="

STUPID ME!!!!!!!!

ARrrggGGGhhhhh!!

明明就知道…… 还要撞头




笨！

10th May 2009

You know it’s kinda strange that you said after I’m here I becoming weak…in term of I change mentally..somehow I need companion as compared to while I’m in penang.. I just don’t care… it is always I’m the one in-charge whenever I free, whenever I feel want to…but now I seems to seek for companion each day I feel alone… accordingly to you that I have lost the hunger of ambitious… gosh~! What m I now.. a little kitten that lost in the jungle… you said you had see no wild tiger in my eyes. Gosh.. I can’t believe that… but sorry to admit that I’m changing.. I knew I becoming weak… I always try to seek for reassurance, just anybody I thought it could work. Too bad to say, is only you I’m always look for… looking at our pictures, memories we share together just pop out so clear so like yesterday… but it’s actually so far we are apart.. you know I’m always longing for the day you come here, don’t you? However, I do not wish you will affect your studies because of me. I still hope you are always good. Though you said your situation is better than mine, but I just knew, we are not better.

July you’re coming aren’t you? I knew you always wish to pamper me as much as you could. I knew I am sometimes really ridiculous. Thanks for always being there for me… you knew I always need your arms to hold me tight and tell me, I’ll never be abandoned.

Do you know how treasure I am towards the pictures we took together? I just can’t get it off my side anytime… I just wish I could keep you in my pocket and carry you with me everywhere I go…

It’s always been tears running in the eyes…when I think about us.. I’m so sorry that I screw up things.. yet I’m so grateful that you always forgive and forget. You know how I feel aren’t you? I m really trying hard to make things right.. sometimes it is just too tough to fit the broken part. I hope we are fixing well…

Having knew that you are so suffer in having your exam…it’s really painful to see you cry… just wanna you to know, you never be alone there…remember I told you before? Whenever you miss me, looking at the moon. The other side, someone is missing you always.. I’m always care even I don’t use to tell you so often. Times couldn’t delete the days we spent. Please take good care of yourself…studies is really not everything. To be the best of yourself but not comparing.. promise I teach you kick boxing when you back here? =p

Thank you for always listen to my bible.. I am really appreciate your concern.. you’re the only one that willing to call and comfort me.. I knew you always there and stay the same like our song… thanks for the gummy bear you’d bought for me.. it’s so sweet whenever I get to take one when I frus.. just because that shows you’re always care…

Heart is always empty when there is nobody

Tears is always running when I’m thinking of you deeply

Memories just so vividly clear when I filing with fears

You’re the one makes me stronger

Each of every breathe

New Place

Thursday Gin brought me back her place... home sweet home.. i like her parents... so kind and nice... ^^ like the home cook food...simple yet warm.. thanks Gin for letting me ease some home sick... muacksss

her 2nd elder sis who same age as me looks younger than both of us.. =p guess bcoz tat she v her cute little spects.. i guess im looks like tat too while i put my noob spects on... XD nite is supper time! get to taste some really nice tomyam in KL finally... love it.. and roti canai... haha... Mr.Potato js scolded me tat sick smr eat smtg like tat..sorries...cant help it... bee must b worried cz i didt take care of myself properly again... =p

moving in uncle James place for a trial staying... he is very friendly but a little too talkertive.. well we shd understood... old folks alone...children settledown outstation... old couple in a lonely house...sure like tat... hopefully everyting wil be alrite... i hv to say, he is a little fussy... i js got back late a little last nite..he was saying hw come so late.. well, i suppose we young workin adults stimes hv to relax abit oso rite... hmm.... i thk everyting gonna b fine.. i wont be at home often..

went for a movie last time.. X-MEN Origin - Wolverin.. nice show.. Gambit is real sexy + cool .. haha... like d way his super power stunned! hmm...but im more looking forward to the 26th June Transformer!! whose with me?? hehe


p/s: i miss u loads.....

something to share with YOU...

The great moments in life won't necessarily means the things you do, they'll also be the things that happen to you.
And no, I'm not saying you can't take action to affect the outcome of your life. You have to take action. And you will. But never forget on any day, you can step out the front door and your whole life can change forever.
You see the universe has a plan, and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps its wings and it starts to rain. It's a scary thought but also a kind of wonderful.
All these little parts of the machine, constantly working, making sure you end up where you suppose to be, exactly when you're suppose to be there.
The right place, at the right time.

Don't ever push yourself too hard. You might stubborn at the moment. But, you're just stepping the same old path without moving forward.

Be clear

Be steady

Times is yet to come

Home Sweet Home

went back during Labour Day... happy ^^ get to see my simol little bfs haha.... all of them were taller than me so much.. i didt knw im so short without my high heels... ><" haha... didt realize tat while im teachin in sch tat time.... whn thy dress up really looks "adults" aha... some oredy dcided to come over KL study... taken down my mobile....so tat can contact me...Kuan Tien u r alwiz welcome to call anytime alrite... =) Cheon Seng stil in d middle of confuse ..dun knw wic path to choose... Boon Ghee goin for chef course... tats great huh! next time i get to hv a big feast thn! =p Kai Lee & Kai Loon still pursuing v their langguage courses while workin part time...glad to hear tat.... Yen Aik, the one my princess said "admire" me alot... XD very very very very quiet... nt talk much to him... but i thk he looks good... lastly, my dearest Mervyn.. who had asked me to "adopt" him as my god-bro.. lolx..so funny... well, he does pretty well...following my foot step...goin for accounting path... hehe.. well, every i dont like tat sch last time... no doubt my students r very cute and all good boys.. and thy rmb me.... ^^ smr my bro told me boys sch is very notty ...same oso la... he oso in the same boys sch.. i can handle how notty he is... keke

home sweet home is alwiz home sweet home... ^^
i love my big king size bed.. miss it so much... miss my big giant torto... hug torto sleep is the best... too bad cant bring it over to KL... sobsssss..... can only go back see thm once a mth... saw my granny...she looks ok.... hopefully i go up fast.. wana bring her over here to stay v me.. miss her d MOST!!! i love u granny.... pls take good care of yaself for me...

came back.. is another dull mood for me... in d bus... along d way.... d sky so grey... raining... is alwiz bcoz of you i can go so far... no matter wat happen...u'll alwiz by my side... being so caring... being so concern... im sorries stims i might disappoint u ...but 1 thg is for sure... im alwiz love u ....

p/s: Gin is goin to end her internship soon... gonna miss her so much...u must miss me ya Gin... muacksss... oh ya!i'll sure ask someone to pressie u v the farewell kiss!! =p =p =p

what a day~~ thankie Gin again...^^

guess wat, i was planned to go McD for study as the place im stayin were js too hot... and thn i get some bastard called and said i hv to move my thgs out immediately as thy got someone else comin... i was like wat the hell.. js last week i told u guys tat u must confirm v me as my aunty cheng thm not ard and u guys were js saying a word to push away everyting? "mis-communication"??!! i was like WTF... askin u all to compensate but u sayin we will deduct accrdingly as d days u delayed... hell, tis is those KL bastards i ever met... unreliable...no need u time u must get fuck off IMMEDIATELY! crappy... lucky thg is those ppl i met, stil ter's some good one... thankie Gin, for ya help..else im gonna "compensate" thm more.... WTF!!! =.=""

whole day, you been helpin me..so hot the afternoon....pity u....after tat hafta rush back smr...sorriessssssss..... really really thankie...whn i got back frm pg definitely bring u more souvenirs!!! hehe.... ring me up anytime u thk of anyting u wan me to bring over frm penang...Oops...shd remind myself to tel u abt it tmr whn i see at work...

poor us... two pretties havin monday blueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =s

thanks a lot...really...appreciate tat...luv ya!

oh yea! my potato js reminded me abt Gin n Tonic! one of my fav. alcohol! haha.. no wonder we so "gam" key.... hohoho! LOLx

Getting Further

ever since you leave,

ever since I'm here...

We are getting further..

Please learn to grow up...

You can't rely on me for d rest of years especially study is very personal things..

No-one can help if you don't help yourselves...

For the past, can i say you learn nothing on the studies?

Even other people i see improved on her own...

and each of every time, you just told me... "you all are so busy, no-one for me to ask"

why other people can do it, but not you?

she went there alone, no-one for her to depends on also.

but she can do it. how can you just said different school have different rules.

yeah...it is diffirent. but the POINT i wanna say is - people can handle their studies, why not you?

you always tell me, how hard you studies. I knew, and i believe in you.

I thought you would have grow up, spending sometimes there alone; but seems, you are not yet ready to be independent in term of studies?

I don't know... guess u must definitely said you are not while you reading this.

Too bad to tell you, from what i heard from you, that still the other way round.

I never under-estimate your ability you know? I always believe you can do well by your own.. just TOO BAD you NEVER believe in yourselves.

I don't know how to save you anymore if you not willing to walk out from your own fear.

YOU HAVE TO GET THINGS DONE BY YOUR OWN TO GET THE SATISFACTION IN ORDER TO GAIN THE CONFIDENCE!

We are apart yet so close I thought...

but now...

I am just too sad to say - - WE are getting further...



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Do you know what I feel at this point of time?

You never know.

Do you know what I want this moment?

I guess you are not.

I am just too by my own..

shall get all the feeling throw?

I am too dull to be alone...

But you never know...

the inside me has thorn...

In no where

but vividy in the shoulders of yours....