给你的话。。。

听到"When You Look Me In the Eyes"那首歌，
都会令我想起
以前和你一起搭地铁，坐巴士的日子。。。
虽然没有比现在富裕，可是你的呵护
是无可取代的
听到"Without You"那首歌，
都会令我想起
你我闹翻的那一刻
我摔门离开的刹那
泪洒满了脸
巴士上的这首歌。。。
你说没有你，我会过得更好。。。
你说没有你，我会工作得更出色。。。
现在听到"Talking To The Moon"
心会碎了满地
我不懂，你的心底。。。
还有我吗？
我不懂，我现在有过得更好吗？
我不懂，你有过得好吗？
我不懂，该如何让你觉得，你的生活不乏味
我不懂，该如何让你的事业如你所意
我们曾憧憬的未来
失去了诺言
我的心，你带走了。。。
我很努力的工作。。。
朋友说，你该找个伴。。。
我的伴，是工作。
我只想，你会过得很好。。。
如果有一天，我成功了。。。
我最希望在我身边的。。。
是那个自信满满的你。。。。

对我来说。。。

你好像觉得，我不再重要
还是，从来……我都不曾重要？
你好像觉得，我不再能干
我累了。。。
你从来不曾理解
再看不到。。。
我曾憧憬属于你我的未来
或许，
我该离开。。。
只是，我舍不得
你给过得……
回忆

Do you remember

it such a very long time ago..
you never thought of do not want to bring up an argument
OR
continue to fight with me when I started a quarrel


BECAUSE u never realize...

It breaks my HEART......

under the cloudly sky

Just so coincidentally I came across your fb account...
It's been so long ago since we last talk
It's been so long ago since we last met
It's been so long ago since we last contact
It's been so long ago since I last seen you
and through this rainbow cursor, here I able to connect you again..
You looks fatter, but still having the two tiring eyes...
guess u must be working too hard as usual...
but I know you are happy... =)
Sometimes when I alone, I wonder will you be like me?
Randomly search online and see if I will be coincidentally bump into your page and get your news..
guess you are too busy for that...
sometimes I do feel like picking up the phone and call you just like how I did last time.
too bad, I think I just don't have the courage after you last words saying - - Don't make you misunderstand between us again..
That's somehow hurtful, which I still thought myself is innocent...
Anyhow, I'm just hoping to know that you are happy

心……在哪？

你没看见我的微笑
只因你的脸庞捉住了我的心跳
忘了曾几何时恋上你的味道
没有星的夜空
思绪懵懂
前路匆匆
走往没有边际的路
终点在哪，还是一样朦胧

遥远的思念

您对她说，最疼的人始终是我们两个……
我懂……
因为这一切都写在你的眼里
我懂……
你有诉不到的苦
说不出的痛
没有人想被自己最深爱的人藐视
但，人都是慵懒的动物
或许到后来，你真的想做个被看得起的人
或许到最后，你觉得努力不会再被深爱的人看见
即使做了也白费
或许，我的理解是错误
我有很多的或许
但，你从来不曾向我诉说
很多时候，我都以为
我有能力的一天，这个曾经欢乐的园地会再次的充满阳光
可，却忽略了人是情感动物
即使有能力支撑，也不再是你的氧气
你走得那么突然
我还没来得及消化
寂静的夜，回想你的点滴
泪还是满盈……
忘不了我们拥有过的欢笑
希望你在天上
享乐似仙
保佑你眼下你所爱的人
您，我将永远铭记于心

10th May 2009

You know it’s kinda strange that you said after I’m here I becoming weak…in term of I change mentally..somehow I need companion as compared to while I’m in penang.. I just don’t care… it is always I’m the one in-charge whenever I free, whenever I feel want to…but now I seems to seek for companion each day I feel alone… accordingly to you that I have lost the hunger of ambitious… gosh~! What m I now.. a little kitten that lost in the jungle… you said you had see no wild tiger in my eyes. Gosh.. I can’t believe that… but sorry to admit that I’m changing.. I knew I becoming weak… I always try to seek for reassurance, just anybody I thought it could work. Too bad to say, is only you I’m always look for… looking at our pictures, memories we share together just pop out so clear so like yesterday… but it’s actually so far we are apart.. you know I’m always longing for the day you come here, don’t you? However, I do not wish you will affect your studies because of me. I still hope you are always good. Though you said your situation is better than mine, but I just knew, we are not better.

July you’re coming aren’t you? I knew you always wish to pamper me as much as you could. I knew I am sometimes really ridiculous. Thanks for always being there for me… you knew I always need your arms to hold me tight and tell me, I’ll never be abandoned.

Do you know how treasure I am towards the pictures we took together? I just can’t get it off my side anytime… I just wish I could keep you in my pocket and carry you with me everywhere I go…

It’s always been tears running in the eyes…when I think about us.. I’m so sorry that I screw up things.. yet I’m so grateful that you always forgive and forget. You know how I feel aren’t you? I m really trying hard to make things right.. sometimes it is just too tough to fit the broken part. I hope we are fixing well…

Having knew that you are so suffer in having your exam…it’s really painful to see you cry… just wanna you to know, you never be alone there…remember I told you before? Whenever you miss me, looking at the moon. The other side, someone is missing you always.. I’m always care even I don’t use to tell you so often. Times couldn’t delete the days we spent. Please take good care of yourself…studies is really not everything. To be the best of yourself but not comparing.. promise I teach you kick boxing when you back here? =p

Thank you for always listen to my bible.. I am really appreciate your concern.. you’re the only one that willing to call and comfort me.. I knew you always there and stay the same like our song… thanks for the gummy bear you’d bought for me.. it’s so sweet whenever I get to take one when I frus.. just because that shows you’re always care…

Heart is always empty when there is nobody

Tears is always running when I’m thinking of you deeply

Memories just so vividly clear when I filing with fears

You’re the one makes me stronger

Each of every breathe

New Place

Thursday Gin brought me back her place... home sweet home.. i like her parents... so kind and nice... ^^ like the home cook food...simple yet warm.. thanks Gin for letting me ease some home sick... muacksss

her 2nd elder sis who same age as me looks younger than both of us.. =p guess bcoz tat she v her cute little spects.. i guess im looks like tat too while i put my noob spects on... XD nite is supper time! get to taste some really nice tomyam in KL finally... love it.. and roti canai... haha... Mr.Potato js scolded me tat sick smr eat smtg like tat..sorries...cant help it... bee must b worried cz i didt take care of myself properly again... =p

moving in uncle James place for a trial staying... he is very friendly but a little too talkertive.. well we shd understood... old folks alone...children settledown outstation... old couple in a lonely house...sure like tat... hopefully everyting wil be alrite... i hv to say, he is a little fussy... i js got back late a little last nite..he was saying hw come so late.. well, i suppose we young workin adults stimes hv to relax abit oso rite... hmm.... i thk everyting gonna b fine.. i wont be at home often..

went for a movie last time.. X-MEN Origin - Wolverin.. nice show.. Gambit is real sexy + cool .. haha... like d way his super power stunned! hmm...but im more looking forward to the 26th June Transformer!! whose with me?? hehe


p/s: i miss u loads.....

Home Sweet Home

went back during Labour Day... happy ^^ get to see my simol little bfs haha.... all of them were taller than me so much.. i didt knw im so short without my high heels... ><" haha... didt realize tat while im teachin in sch tat time.... whn thy dress up really looks "adults" aha... some oredy dcided to come over KL study... taken down my mobile....so tat can contact me...Kuan Tien u r alwiz welcome to call anytime alrite... =) Cheon Seng stil in d middle of confuse ..dun knw wic path to choose... Boon Ghee goin for chef course... tats great huh! next time i get to hv a big feast thn! =p Kai Lee & Kai Loon still pursuing v their langguage courses while workin part time...glad to hear tat.... Yen Aik, the one my princess said "admire" me alot... XD very very very very quiet... nt talk much to him... but i thk he looks good... lastly, my dearest Mervyn.. who had asked me to "adopt" him as my god-bro.. lolx..so funny... well, he does pretty well...following my foot step...goin for accounting path... hehe.. well, every i dont like tat sch last time... no doubt my students r very cute and all good boys.. and thy rmb me.... ^^ smr my bro told me boys sch is very notty ...same oso la... he oso in the same boys sch.. i can handle how notty he is... keke

home sweet home is alwiz home sweet home... ^^
i love my big king size bed.. miss it so much... miss my big giant torto... hug torto sleep is the best... too bad cant bring it over to KL... sobsssss..... can only go back see thm once a mth... saw my granny...she looks ok.... hopefully i go up fast.. wana bring her over here to stay v me.. miss her d MOST!!! i love u granny.... pls take good care of yaself for me...

came back.. is another dull mood for me... in d bus... along d way.... d sky so grey... raining... is alwiz bcoz of you i can go so far... no matter wat happen...u'll alwiz by my side... being so caring... being so concern... im sorries stims i might disappoint u ...but 1 thg is for sure... im alwiz love u ....

p/s: Gin is goin to end her internship soon... gonna miss her so much...u must miss me ya Gin... muacksss... oh ya!i'll sure ask someone to pressie u v the farewell kiss!! =p =p =p

多事秋……

好累……

工作，很乏味……

刚刚拒绝了Tiffany，中午又来了个不懂什么，偶没听清楚。。。哈哈！

你说：好像那份工需要你，多过你需要那份工。xD

偶没这么“巴百”啦…… 只是，现在我只想好好的，顺利地完成那个未完成的任务。因为我要和大家一起毕业嘛……当时，“骗”了你…… 偶真的觉得对不起你，也对不起自己；还有偶的bee，她一直都很鼓励偶。还有potato……

你说：真金不怕红炉火。偶真的相信…… 但是偶不要做金，偶要是Platinium...hahahaha!

偶，好像傻了。。。

你不懂，偶……真的真的好累……

谢谢你陪偶聊天……

谢谢你陪偶打字……

谢谢你关心的电话……

谢谢你爱心的便当……

谢谢你友谊的相助……

Aunty Cheng, 今天的便当，偶吃得很饱，很幸福 ……^^

今天的午餐，气氛很怪……

你今天不舒服，担心……

要好好照顾自己噢……




我好想你能把我拥进怀里疼…………

Accident

It was so shock that you told me one of ya best fren's mum had just pass away... Im shock and dun knw wat shd i say...

You saying u'll goin back early to help up... yea, u should...probably the best way to comfort ya fren... i couldnt help up any, but to send my best regards to the family...

May those alive, stay strong;
May those in heaven, live in peace.
Amithaba.

Just an accident, human life being taken...
wat can i say?
人的生命真的很脆弱……
要惜福……


In the end, you never be alone coz I'll be there

"Coming Soon"

今天又上了KL，Pavillion…… 一路上的心情还OK……

表现给自己打- - 80%

这次的谈话过程让我启发很多……谢谢你Jenny。我开始懂，自己该往哪走。有了更清楚的方向。



搭了一段时间的车，终于到站。

好累…… monorail 坏了，导致时间延长，站得脚块断了。真的很不好意思，你该等久了吧……

你真好，还愿意抽空来载我。谢谢你……

在这里快四个月了…… 已经好久好久，没那么开心……

谢谢你……

我好像有弄疼你了……>.<" 不好意思。真的不是故意的。。。 =P

真的很谢谢你…… ^^

5 years plan

IMPORTANT DATE:-



1. Aug 2009



2. Year 2012



3. Dec 2014

Oopszzzz

OopssssszzZ!

you found me a secret...

i realize a secret....

so sweet...

yet, so sour...

Oopssszzz!

I'm all alone...

one month

is been a month that i've workin in KL alone.... anywer i go outside office... im alone.... but i guess i used to be like tat once b4.... so.... it js back to the old days ....

thgs change.... and i feel =s tat hw come u change ya attitude towards me?? our frenship js worth so little cant even comparable like ur buddies??? it kinda upset u knw.... but wat to do... i've asked... and u replied u dun knw hw to answer as the answer for the question... so... i thk tats it.... may b somedays.. whn ppl ask u abt me... u might properly stil rmb my name... may b somedays... memories js faded away as we grow older... may be.... who knows...

Day 4 in KL

another day tat i woke up early as usual .. early in the morning 650am... haha... met v the parents who is real kind tat provided me the hospitality... hav some light chat v thm b4 thy goin to work..

anyway, the house is very warm and nice place to stay except the mosquitoe part... ><" wic i got several bites.... Oouuchhh.... =s

after tat my frens said thy can meet me up to hv some light chat b4 im going back.. so i js followed and hv some dimsum again..it was EXPENSIVE!!! i tel u ...less than 10plates we ordered and it cost RM31.40 i was like O.o so expensive d dimsum here and not really nice only.. i can get u a better and cheaper 1 in penang... =.= hw much a fishball plate oso cost RM3... ridiculous =.=""

i wana go home... started to miss everyone in penang... js think abt tat im gonna leave pg and move to KL if i got the job.. so fast.. so rush.. i havent settle my thgs back in pg yet... and wat abt movin house stuff.... thy havent tell me wat thy gonna do next... my thgs r so many .... =s =s =s how how how.... hopefully everyting gonna be settled by the time im home... i js need your decision so i can plan my stuff... so hate this kind of unorganize situation.... haizzzzzzz

Day 3 in KL

Day 3 - - - Christmas Day!!!

We planned to 1utama meet up v fei 1st... but my frens said can meet up v me.. so i didt join vivi thm... goin to starbucks meet v frens... mana tau a while, thy said thy goin for skate... as far as i knw the traffic today is terrible so i better dont follow... i js shop shop ard...

1st of all, went to MPH to get a TQ card, thn went to Mark & Spencer to get some souvenirs, thn went into VIOR. ter hv a grand sales ter... at 1st wana buy a pants for someone tat is too fat to fit... so in d end, get another pants for my little bee bro... =P he said he dont want a jeans wic i asked the salesboy to try b4.. haha. silly.. of coz i'll get a new one! but i must said tat the salesboy is really cute... he js soi soi like tat follow me to the fitting room thn try the jeans out to let me see... XD

after tat meet up back v vivi thm at Waffel World b4 going to bowling! such a long time i nvr bowl dee... keep on cuci longkang ter.... XD its fun! hehe....

Next is, dinner time...!!! we went to Fish&Co.. i ordered seafood platter for 1..yum yum!!!finish up d whole plate! phew~~ FULLLLLLLLLLLL!!! satisfied! ^^ supposed thy plan to go clubbing, but too bad baby devil has been devil and js wana go home to get some goodnight sleep... so in d end, we all go home... the traffic is stil jam jam jam everywer... sobssssss

Day 2 in KL

i js realize the place i stay was named Kepong Baru wic is quite far from down town... it was xmas eve... and i got the interview at 1pm... cz i afraid of the jam was i asked my frens please wake up earlier to send me to the company... guess wat, we were 1hour early and surprisingly ter was no jam.. smooth traffic all d way...

d interview r smooth.. i like the company poliy, the career development , basically all r nice..the only thgs tat i concern was - - m i able to survive v the salary in KL as everyting is basically expensive here... ><"

as d interview done early, my frens were not expect tat so i've to stuck ter for 2hours waiting thm to pick me up.... so i went to the nearest kopitiam for a meal - - the HaiLam kopitiam wic is the only chinese kopitiam according to the cleaning service aunty.. the tomyam not bad..and order 1 chinese tea total cost me RM5.20 not bad la..consider cheap dee for the food in KL... i guess..

after 2hours waiting, finally my frens came to pick me up.. 1st time i went to the Curve.. it was huge...but i stil prefer the 1utama deco... it is more interesting... and the theme for xmas ter is "Alice in the Wonderland" ^^ me me me the theme....keke

was suppose to hv dinner in Italiannese but i hv other frens wana meet up so didt join thm for dinner... starving waitin for the other frens so i got some light meal while waiting.. hv it in Station Kopitiam.. a set of Ikan pari + lala rice v drinks cost RM12... hmm...moderate...its the cheapest i can find in the mall bsides fast food dee... =p wait wait wait finally thy r here.... cz wana hv sushi..so we went to Sakae sushi (tats my son fav) ha!

after tat...here the funny stun. was suppose to follow vivi thm back but end up due to my d other frens late so thy said wil come back to me after d mamak..thn i was like...thinkin in mind "can thy make it as outside is jam like crazy".. but since thy said alrite...thn i guess ok... so hafta follow d other gang go Scarlet clubbing as thy oredy outside... reaching the club,d music js so noisy...and smoking and drinkin was js like...arghhh...wat d heck.... my nose....sniffing non-stop.... pray the jam over so i can get home earlier.... thx dude for treatin me the cover charge...

thx vivi and jeshua for driving me ard.... sorry for any inconvenience caused... many many thanks for the ride...

1st xmas in KL.... nth special..no fireworks but only bubble snow... simple...i wish u were here..v me... miss all of u in Penang.. muackssss

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Day 1 in KL

as planned, the interview dated on tmr 24/12/08 1pm.. so we got a 730am bus...no excitement bcoz its all come after disappointment.. i wonder why i came at the 1st place.. i wonder why u sudden change ya mind and let me come... it's all ??? wat to do...still, its a job, an opportunity.. so dont waste it...thy said take it as a vacation as i so long nvr giv myself a break oredy... so here i am.. KUALA LUMPUR...

in d house, room not bad, bed not bad, wireless not bad, APPLE laptop perfect... sitting here to blog not bad.. 5hours in the bus...butt pain, back sore.. i js need a nap and rest and dont wana go anywer...xmas eve, i dont feel like goin anywer either..but too bad thy dont allow me to spend the eve home alone... so MUST follow thm at least i dont make my fren awkward...or paiseh or anyting... thanks for the accommodation and the meal...

im gonna take a nap.... stay tune for the follow up...

不在……

你和她的距离…… 越来越远……

你和她的步伐…… 连个音尾都跟不上……

你…… 还是一样 不变的在那个原点……

她…… 却 因为 某些…… 原因- - 不在原地踏步

你…… 还是一样 傻傻的

她…… ……

对不起……