No Where to Escape

"Long with Mediocrity"
"Short with Excellence"

I chose the short one... why? desperate for success?
Yes I am... I have been fighting so hard.. I made my choice..to move on.. this is what I got? I looks so tiny... I am like nothing... I feel so useless.... What else I got? escape to no where in the place I'm not belongs to...

Dream On Until My Dream Comes Through..
I'm not just dream, I do workhard...
Why - - - this is all I got?

I do want to be just so little.... Where's my pride??????
I am so miserable.... This feeling faded away 8months ago... and now.... it comes back.... =S

blueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

今天的心情

只有一个字可以形容- -

很

BLUE

She just no so into you

forget her...


she is just not so into you


so forget her....


you are making everyone miserable..

GET UP!

WAKE UP!!

You are such a LIAR!

I trusted you...

I thought all these while was their faults..

But..

The truth is - - You are trying to set me up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

how can you do this to us???!!!

We treated you not bad all these years...

ESPECIALLY HE LOVES YOU

HE WILL DIE FOR YOU~~~

You KNEW it...

how can you?

how could you??

should I consider LUCKY that I wasn't that stupid enough to fall for the trap?

should I felt pathetic to the innocent child that trusted you and started hatred the rest?

I AM SO DISAPPOINTED ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMN FUCKING ASSHOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

disappointed....

you

let

me

down

again...........

I'm

so

disappointed

on

you...


I'm so blue...

I


AM


LIKE


A


BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=(

我

真的……

真的……

很累……

=（

1st of March

Today - - the 1st day of March... as usual i walk alot ...walk to get my roti and other groceries as usual.... and guess wat... i nearly got rob.... can you imagin tat???!!! i couldnt blif tat someday smtg like tat wil happen on me.... lucky is i grab my wallet properly... i heard and saw the motorist... but i tot tat was js another motorist tat passed by... i walk nvr the longkang ter dee....none can get near to me unless thy walk or thy wana fall into the longkang... but UNFORTUNATELY i've been sighted as a victim for tat motorist...

at 1st i didt notice any unusual until i hear the motor sound like getting nearer to me and slow down..thn immediately i knw smtg not rite... and BINGO! kns tat he tryin to grab my wallet frm me.... i hold it tight tight... and kick the motor...he was nearly fall down only he kambuan and drive away... i was so shock until i js knw hw to kick the motor and grab tight tight my wallet and FORGET hw to shout... >.<>

dun knw y me... i oredy miserable enough...and yet smtg like tis happen...lucky is tat guy dont hv a weapon...if not fellow frens i guess u gonna see my face in newspaper dee....shd i consider myself lucky or unlucky.... =s

酸酸的。。。。。。

你……
好像…… 卸下了……我们的合照……





还是……很想念房间的那个大乌龟……


=(

dEviL's murmur

today the ever earliest i reached Kepong... but hw come im not happy.... and... im really not happy... so tired.... whole day....




come to realize tat im not as good as i thought i am....

i only worth an assignment...

时间，
时间……
快要没有时间；
我们越来越像，
越来越像- - 朋友而已

throw potatoes

dont gimme anymore whipped potatoe... dump it to the dustbin.... blekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

when plan turn into rubbish

there's one time a principal tell me that "people without plan is a failure, people with plan is a key to success".. im quite agree with him at tat moment... but lookin at my situation now everyting js turn into nuts..

are we suppose to hv contingency plan behind each move? but why do we need a back up when u knw u gonna success?? isn't tat js for those who lack of confidence? tis is always wat i blif in.. however, tis time finally come to a dead-end for myself.... wic everyting i plan turn into a rubbish... no doubt i do hav a contingency plan.. but who likes the back up whn the original plan is js so brilliant?

arrrgghhhh... guess i js hv no luck... accidents 3times for the 1st half of year oredy a sign for me tat i really need to be extra cautious on every single move i've made.. but u knw me... im not blif in heresy....ter it goes...prove tat..... im such a failure...how fallacy... how pathetic... how sarcastic...

=s

i feel =s

6859!!!

6859 6859 wats wrong v u???? lately so like to kiss ppl's butt or let ppl kiss ya butt & knock ya eyes 1..... walau eh...tis is seriously not my driving skill probz leh....u see u...tis morning daddy drive u also so like wana let ppl ter-kiss ya butt oredy......u "fak hao" arrr........!!!!!!! wat is tis..... js now i drive oso u nearly "invited" ppl kiss ya butt... or lately the car's all no eyes...kenot see u ...u too simol dee izzit??? u see js nw mum&dad oso saw tat... im driving u slow & steady...ter the stupid Vios wana come kiss ya butt...even i oredy horn so many times...! oie Vois! u dafe kah???!!! KNS KNS!!!! arghhhhh...wat happen so "suai" 1 lately .....
6859 6859 u need to go pray liao...tmr free bring u go let the indian buddha pom pom...else kenot lah...... sighhh....drive u oso scare scare >.<""""

Accident...

This early morning after drop my bro to sch.. i accident... again for tis month. twice oredy!! arrgghhhhh...wats wrong v me??? js broke my records la!!! nvr accident b4...& thn d 1st time was minor bcoz nobody get injured and d car was kinda ok for the other party. now i bang a malay guy, js ard the area wer all malay gathered. so ciat sai lah me... compensate a sum of money, he dont wana do any report. & i dont want to be so mahuan... he said he is ok. hopefully he is ok. i js saw graze on his foot, bleedin abit.. and the motor front number plate was spoilt. tats all... & some kaypo come & interrupt.. and blablabla... js pray hard for me tat he is ok. i wanted to get him to the hospital, he refused. feel so bad tat bang a human... im really really sorriesssss... pray for you health.

now i feel sux abt myself.... im driving real slow lately... LUCKILY im slow..else i thk i'll b put in jail. thn farewell my frens & family...so long my blog. i'll nvr be sittin here typin nemore.

hinssing js told me to go pray lately.. now i thk he is right. may be i shd go pray my K ma to get her blessing... >.< argghhhhh stil feel so sorries & terrible to the malay guy... =s

Again, i deal v a brunch of kaypo myself.
Again, i drive home myself.
Again, i comfort myself im alrite.
Again, i go atm withdrawl alone.
Again, i go to Peng's repair alone.
Again, i sitted ter & wait for the car done alone.
Again, the uncle tel me "ah girl, told u to be careful dee=.="
Again, i replied the uncle "uncle, i drive 40km/j nia... else im wont be here sitting v u dee"
Again, i did everyting myself.

But i feel really sorries to the malay guy... SORRIESSSS!!! i knw sorry no cure, as he oredy injured /.\ but stil im sorries... may be he shd go pray his Allah too. bcoz he told me yesterday he js accident, thn tis early morning AGAIN! wat a day for him... hope he is really ok... =s

Note to Self:- NO NEXT TIME!!

XO nobody here...whn i js need someone... OX

so paiseh... >.<

i js read up my fren's blog....js get to knw tat everyone is bringing a pressie to the gathering...im the only one who went with empty hand summore bring along my bro... so paisehhhhhhhhhh.... arggg....im so clumsy..... haizzz..... next time MUST MUST thk of tat whn there's any other gathering... >.< im so nutz

=(

hw come suddenly grow so many simol pimples today..sob sobsss.....
suddenly js pop out all the simol simol 1....aiyeerrrrrrrrrr...i dun want i dun want....i want my "kut kut" face larrrrrr.........may b i eat too many heaty food lately...but thn tis is wat my pretty Mabel tel me can cure ulcer wor....the method is useful to cure ulcer wor...but not for pimples...... =.="

sob sobsss... =(

my tv spoil... the tv in my room spoil...after 10years it has company me... it is now spoil.....my beloved bro la...really keng! he said, "hw come each time i came in ya room sure might spoil some of ya belongings???"
i hv no ideas why....but it is spoilt nw.. i kenot watch cartoon dee.....monday my mum said only ask ppl come repair...hw if she dont wana repair for me leh...sure gonna cost a sum...because it is old... sob sobssss..... ="( i want my TV back......................................................................

I have an ulcer... /.\

sob sobs....tis morning i woke up..js get to realize that i hv an ulcer... /.\
i've knew that it is swellin few days back & been drinkin alot alot of water, thking to get escape frm it..
too bad... i thk im stil weaker....fight lost d war again..... aiyahhhh!!! why why why... cant eat... difficult to talk...
i wana eat larrrrrrrrrrrrr...... my biscuits, my chocolatess....... sob sobsss.... dad dad & little bee, u both betta
stay away from my snackss... else im gonna chase u 18 road.... blekkkk~~~~~~~ =p

today is quite a busy day. relatives came whn we r goin out. so drag sometimes...but at least we get to ang pow..
lolx.... & as planned , my beloved xiao zhu zhu brought along her boyfriend come pay us a visit... so LUCKY that my parents didt face black abt it...
as u see.... me oredy 22 years old daughter , js talkin v guys a little bit longer thy wil started to b paraniod... so wat do u thk whn thy
actually saw their niece bringing a boyfriend? well, i guess may b human being js selfish...as thy may scare their own children
snap away by other people but others' children they r ok with it... but it is stil weird tat my parents actually encourage my little bee
go grab a girl... tats really weird.... well, nth to comment abt it.. as i oredy get used to it... it is oredy been 21 years ++
just hafta say that im comin from a weirdo family..thats all... hahahaha!!! may be bcoz of my parents kena "TOTO" today so thy r js havin a good
mood...wakakakaka....

im stil so sad abt my ulcer even after i've crap so much in here.... i wana eat larrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... my face is swelling.... & bee js said my face look more
like a fishball...big fishball indeed.... =.="








ulcer is making me so sick.... T.T